Y cant me just say out my true feelings n I dun want to keep ur name as a secret already...
Ng Zu Jing...
I dun thk I cant live without u, obviously, Im still a happy n siao girl with no u in my life...
However, the truth is I think u're still in my heart...
I ain't like those extreme gals, I can accept that we already break, we aint friends anymore n we dun contact each other at all...
Im not dumb, or can say Im quite rational... I wont choose to jump off a building for a guy or being annoying n keep disturbing the guy...
But how I wish u could tell me y u chose to mia in the first place...
I think I can understand a bit... cus u noe that we cant contact cus we cant be just purely friends after those things happened... n u no need to contact with me cus u got other girls to contact with, I can tell this from ur pics...
Fine, cus I saw u grinned, not like last time... U seem to be happier now:)
I aint a loser just bcus I cant forget ab u or whatever, n I still believe that u're a good person.
I think u worth me to confess all these, as I also told u before, we only live once, so... I dun want to regret...
Sorry for the sms that I sent to u just now, 'Ass'
I still rem u said the song 'Sha Gua' is the best song to describe both of us...
But till now, I think it's the best song for me, not for u...
I tried to find ur num cus I wanted to say happy bday to u on 13June, but I cant find... Dun noe why, I wanted to find ur num again just now, n I found it at the back of my photo, but instead of ur name, I put there 'someone that I want to forget' last time...
I thk u still rem me, cus u have our couple tee that we didnt wear it tgt before, couple ring, my diary for u, present, small small little things, photos, t-shirt that I bought for u... ...n our memories... U cant throw memories away dear...
Lastly, I felt sorry to insult ur english name... n talked shit on ur fren's fb page...
I thk I was angry about some of the comments that u left there...
Nvm, hope we can smile to each other when we meet again:)
Smile more, cus u look gorgeous when u smile...
ends at 03:12
Sunday 20 June 2010Y
5.34 am now...
Im surprised that there are ppl still visiting my blog... cus I nv update n there's no pic anymore...
I thk if there's time, I will change this blog skin n make my blog looks more interesting by uploading pics again? Hmm, if there's time okay:)
Feel damn bad now, cus monday sch reopen, we only have one week of holiday...
I need to retake one subject, new class== Dun noe who I'll face... a bit scared eh
Another thing is I will skip sch for Universal Studio, like wtf... I dun dare to tell my parents, but I'll tell them after some days, lol
Fuck sia, 9am class, then in between got 3 hours break, n others only have one module, but it was my fault, so I must face the consequences.
Hope everything will be fine, I will put in my effort, wake up early, no slacking from the start I promise...
I feel damn guilty now... my Tuesday... my sch day... n Im going to Universal Studio... F F F
To someone: I thk I like u, n how I hope u also like me not bcus of that u ass...
ends at 05:34
Tuesday 1 June 2010Y
Feel like crying...
Feel like screaming out the F-word...
Shit sia, totally no life... 4 days break including e weedends, I almost spent all my time on e two final assignments... freaking loads things to do...
I felt guilty for sleeping, watch tv shows while eating, n taking bus n mrt... I thk I wasted my own time, did I?
N Im not superman, Im not those kind no need sleep still can straightaway go school at 9 in the morning or sleep 1 or 2 hrs can wake up one... I had tried b4, but only 1 or 2 times really got no choice, or I will overslept for sure for most of the times on the submission days... F sia
I had changed...
I used to bring a camera along with me whenever I go out...
I used to take pictures of myself like non stop, but now I find it lame...
I used to be quite extreme n emo, but now I become more open-minded n happy...
However, one thing nv change in me...
Im still rather detail, so tat's why I need to spend more time on my assignment... cus I will thk a lot for this n that... ma fan ttm
I'm changing... ya, I noe I need to change, it's not a good habit...
N I thk I had ignored my phone for a long period of time...
Not totally ignore la of course, but Im not so addicted to sms, phone calls n blah blahs...
I always put it in silent mood, that's why I always dont pick up calls n dont reply msgs...
N I hate those times when I waited for someone's msg or talk to someone through phone from afternoon till the next day morning or till I sleep... shitty memories... pity my ears n brain sia...
Oh, one more thing... Haha, I just realised he'll read my blog daily... cus he explained to me e thing on that day after I wrote a post...
Lol, zi lian, how u noe I was talking ab u... ok la, sux explanation n we met each other today:)
